Bryceton is 11!!!

I really need to do better keeping up with this blog. I always say that I am going to, but life gets the best of me and I find myself back here months later saying the same thing lol.

So it is now my goal to publish weekly blogs. I may have more to say now that Blaine is out on the road. I want to keep these precious memories for the kids and let it all out when I need to (Like my last blog). So with that, Here's some highlights from the past couple of weeks.

Blaine left in February to a truck driving school in Missouri. It isn't ideal for us but with not many factory jobs here to choose from we feel it's what we have to do right now. I know God has a plan and we feel led here so we will see where it goes from here. So far I have cried more in the last month than the last year. Learning how to adjust to an empty bed, a clean bathroom, and a quiet house after the kids have gone to bed is a big challenge. Blaine has been my BEST friend for the past 6 years and I don't really know what to do with myself without him here. I try to stay busy, cleaning, working, projects from pinterest (Thank you Pinterest!!!) but my friends, they are pretty much busy all the time and I just feel very alone. I know I will get through it though but I just wish Blaine was here. I never realized how much I need and rely on him until I am crying in the frozen food aisle at Wal-mart because the kids are running a muck and no one will help me.

We have been going to New Life Church in Fort Smith and it is awesome! I am so glad my friend Melenna invited us. I feel it's just what I have been needing. Small (but growing fast) very friendly, caring, and involved! I have already gotten a letter from the pastor a phone call from a member, and several new acquaintances which I hope to turn into friends as I get to know them :) Would be really great to go to play dates, have an intimate prayer session, and just have some girl time. The kids are loving it as well :)

Last week Bryceton turned 11! Man it seems like only yesterday I brought him home. I know I was young and it was unplanned but I don't think anything is really unplanned as everything is in God's plan. I am so thankful he chose me to be Bryceton's mom. Being a young mom has definitely taught me a lot and prepared me to be the mother I am today.

He didn't have a birthday party this year as he was grounded for making a rude comment to some younger boys at school. I don't tolerate bullying or spiteful behavior and that he knows. So that was his punishment as well as apologizing. It's the first year I have done this but hopefully he remembers it in the future. I did get him a cake and a few gifts. Even if he misbehaves I love him and am proud of him.

Madison turned 8 the day after Bryceton's birthday! It really hurts that I couldn't be there. I just have to keep telling myself to be patient and it will work out in the end. I just wish time would fly so that she will be old enough to understand how much I love her, want her, and fought for her. If I had the money I would fight every day. Thats another reason Blaine took this job. To give me the best chance to have her back home where she belongs.

Anyway it's spring break now so who knows what the week will hold! I am terrified of having the kids all week by myself with no break but it will be good practice for the summer when Madison is here. I just wish I had the funds to take them to do something besides the park or sit in the house. I will try to think of some things we can do though :)

Hope everyone else has a lovely spring break too!