Torn

So I thought I had the baby names all decided. But the other day, I realized, there are so many wonderful names to chose from! And with this being the last baby, I want to make sure I pick the name I really want. Abel is for sure for a boy, but I really can’t decide on a middle name. At first we thought Mathius, but now Blaine is saying Christian (he’s been watching Nip/Tuck with me,lol), which would still follow the tradition of the middle name being from the Bible or having to do with God.  I kinda like it too. And for the girl, I was dead set on Rowan. The middle name will for sure be Serenity, but now I am liking Isabella. It’s just so, exotic sounding. But Rowan is rare. I know not one Rowan, and yet I know 2 Isabellas. Which it is like 5 or something on the most popular names for 2006. SIGH! I know that once we found out the sex of the baby, it will be much easier to decide, and that as soon as I look into my child's eyes, I will know the name God has intended for him/her. I just like being prepared. So, any ideas?

To My Husband

Saturday was Blaine’s birthday. The big 23. I planned a night out at Red Lobster, one of his favorite places to eat. (My least, but it was his birthday). I even had a babysitter for the whole night. Then a movie, whatever he wanted to see, and then he wanted to go to the casino in Oklahoma. When Friday came, I went to pay bills, and found we had gotten behind, and didn’t have not one dollar to spare.  I was so disappointed that we couldn’t go out for his birthday. But I had gotten him some really warm pajama pants and a new hat because his old one was starting to smell. We ended up keeping all the kids all weekend long so Michael could go out since we couldn’t afford to. So Saturday morning, I decided I had better get all the Thanksgiving fixings, before it got busy and all that. Plus I had to pick up Blaine’s cake, well cup cakes. I had him a cupcake thing made in the shape of a heart, and it was green, his favorite color. Well I wanted to give Blaine a chance to sleep in. So I loaded up all three kids, and headed to Wal-mart. Beat the rush huh? HA! People were everywhere. They had all gotten the same idea. Needless to say I got out of there with all three kids and all their respective limbs, and there weren’t in surprises in the basket. Usually by the time I get to the check out there are at least 5 things I didn’t put in the basket, and by the time I get home, there are one or two things I didn’t remembering buying. KIDS!  I woke Blaine up and lite his candles, and told him how special he was to me. To all of us. My kids really adore him. Especially that little poo poo. He is her everything, and no amount of cupcakes could ever show him how much that means to me.  Anyways. I love you Blaine. So so much. You are a great person for making the sacrifices you do. Being so far from your only friends and family. Working to put me through school, and help take care of my kids. Helping around the house, even if you don’t know how to load a dishwasher, or do laundry (hee hee). It’s the thought that counts. I will make up for not being able to go out. In just 2 months our bills will be paid off for the most part, and we can start looking at motorcycles. I love you baby!!!!

 

I have a stalker!!!

So it seems I have a stalker. Which I must admit, I am not the least bit surprised. 2 or 3 days after I found out I was pregnant, Robert sent me a text message and said he heard I was pregnant and when was I due. Of course I replied to him that it was none of his business and to leave me alone. He said as long as his daughter was living in my house, Blaine and I were his business. Which I said my body is none of his business, and if he texted me again, I was going to file harassment charges. Man Blaine was ticked. He really wants to beat the crap out of him. But that would take forever, because he’s full of it.

So I sat here wondering how he could know. My first thought was myspace. So I searched for his name, his mom’s name, his ex’s name, both his brother’s names, his sister’s name and his sister in law’s name. And I came up with nothing. So I was like, hmmmm. Then a thought occurred to me. His sister in law and I became very close 2 years ago over a mutual hatred of his mother. She is married to his brother, so that would be her mother in law. Unlucky for her, she lives close  to the woman. Lucky for me I live over 800 miles away. Anyways, we were constantly sharing gossip about her. I told her when Nell (Robert's mother) talked about her, and she told me the things that Nell was saying to his WHOLE family about me. Which, let me list what she said about me:

I don’t have custody of any of my kids. I gave one away to her father. My son’s father is in prison, and let me tell you, at the time, he lived a few apartments down from me and I saw him every week to get my child support, lol. I get pregnant for money...LOL!!!! (Let’s weigh the costs of raising a child, versus the cost of child support from the father. I think it takes more than 60 bucks a week to raise a child.) And at the time, my mother was still alive, and I supposed hated her, which you know if you ever read my blogs that I loved my mother very much, and miss her so much. She was all I had. By the way, I love kids and that’s why I have them. Anyways, she told a bunch of other crap and so the hatred began. And Keri his sister in law and I would email all the time! Then one time Robert got my emails and told his mother what she and I were doing.

 Instead of standing up for me, he took her side, and that’s when I really started hating him. So Keri and I decided we could still be friends, even though my ex and I were not together, we just couldn’t talk bad about Nell, his mother. With her living in Ohio, they have never met Kadence, so I gave her my photobucket link. When I found out I was pregnant, I put the pictures of my tests in there. So I thought that either Keri told them about me being pregnant, or she had given Nell my photobucket link. So I emailed Keri and asked her. And she just got back to me yesterday.And this is what she said....
Honestly, Nell is the one who told me you were pregnant. She said she put it together because it follows your past track record? I haven’t looked at your photobucket in a long long time! Sorry! So it wasn’t me who found out first? Do they know about your photobucket? Can she find it online? Nell is good about finding people online I do not know how to do that...she found Nikki, Mitch’s sister after they had a big falling out and she moved to Georgia! She started sending her e-mail’s and told her she found her online somehow...I am not that good with computer stuff.
So I decided a new method. I did a myspace search using their email addresses instead of names, and what do you know! There was one for Nell, but it hadn’t been used since July or August. Want to hear the sad part? There was one for her 14 year old son, yet it said he was 16, and he had no friends but Tom, had been logged onto recently, and the only picture was of Nell’s dog! So she is using her kids email and names to spy on me. What a stalker. I knew she was a crazy. Robert had told me about her stealing her own husbands pills, and having a mental breakdown and stuff. I mean I guess I could make my profile private. But why should I have to? She shouldn’t be nosing around in the first place. Then she tells her family she just "knows" I am pregnant! What a liar! She "knows" because she is spying on me. And she talks about my "track record" She has 4 kids by 3 different men, and she had her first one at 14. That’s right. She is 45 years old, and her son is 31. I confronted her once, but she said that I didn’t know what I was talking about, and I guess I don’t know her age. Her own daughter in law, the 31 year old's wife, is the one that told me about it. I think she knows her husbands age, and as for his mother, well on that myspace I found, it says she is 45 years old, so hmmm...sounds about right to me.

Yeah so that’s the crazy thing I have to deal with. Man people are so crazy! She needs help seriously, and I am so glad she’s in Ohio, and I don’t have to put up with her very much.

Hot Date

*EDIT*- There is a picture of the layout of the house at the bottom. GO LOOK!

Well it’s been a long time since I had a date. Seems like we never go anywhere without at least ONE kid, usually Bryceton and Madison are at Michael’s on the weekend, but we always have poo poo. I thought to myself Saturday night, Man we need a date. So I called up Michael at work. It was a guard drill weekend so we had the kids during the day. Anyways I asked him if he would mind keeping Kadence for us. He was like "How will I get anything done with 3 kids?" And I was like exactly, now you know why our house is always a mess, lol. Anyways he said yes, so I asked Blaine out on a date, lol. I decided to get dressed up since I had been wearing jeans and tee shirts all month, not to mention pulling my hair into a pony tail everyday. So I put on a nice shirt, curled my hair, and put my make-up on. Put some heels on and we went to Outback for dinner. We had a bloomin’ onion, which is one of my favorite things. And then we both had chicken. It was so delicious. After that we went to the mall. I got a maternity sweater and corduroy pants for later on. The we went to Candy Craze and filled up on candy to take to the movies. That alone was over 14 bucks, lol. But no one makes candy like they do. I love the little candy covered strawberry gummies, and the blue raspberry gummie bears. Mmmmmmmm. After that we still had some time to kill before the movies, so we came home and checked the mail. Then we headed to the movies and got popcorn and a coke. Blaine put too much popcorn salt on it though and it was kinda yuck. Then we watched Jackass 2. Boy I laughed my butt off. It was so funny. There were about 2 parts I thought I might actually throw up on, but other than that, hilarious! I wanna watch it again. We came home and just laid around. Blaine played his game and I went to sleep. So all in all it was a great night. I just wish we could do it more often. So any volunteers to babysit????


Oh, and I don’t know what I wrote last, but we got to see where the house is going to be built, and pick out all the colors and stuff for the brick, tile, carpet, paint, counter tops and siding. The bad part is we didn’t have enough loan money to pay for the whirlpool tub. The good part is we get to pay cash for it in March when the house is done. Doesn’t matter to me as long as I get it. Oh yeah, March, the house will be done at the very latest March 16th, but they said probably a lot sooner than that. If the weather goes great, could even be February. So it will be done before the baby arrives. What else? Oh! I enrolled Kadence in this care bear friendship club, and it came with a book, poster, sticker/activity book, 46 stickers, a little Cheer bear, and a care a lot castle.They send a new shipment every month, and with each shipment comes a new book, sticker/activity set, and little care bear to put in the castle. It came in today and I am so excited. I am going to save all the stickers to put in her room in the new house. Well I guess that’s it.
 

This is what our house will look like inside!