Hating Life

Well here is a little update for those who care:

Last Tuesday, not this past one, but the one before, Blaine says the van won’t stop hardly because it needs brakes. So we have like 0 dollars, so I call up Sears and ask them if they take checks, and they say they do, which is great because we can write the check and put Blaine’s pay check in Thursday night right? Hee hee hee. So we get to Sears where we also notice we need 2 new tires because the wire was showing through, we also need new rotors (sp?) drums, and a serpentine (sp again?) belt. And an Alignment. They proceed to tell us it will be $700 total, I wanted to die, but it had to be fixed. 

So we leave the van there, and we all 6 (yes the kids too) get in the car to drive to Blaine’s work so I could drop him off. We are on a 4 lane road, and we are in the right lane, waiting at a red light behind traffic, to turn right. It was about 3:30 p.m, so school and work traffic was bad! I notice a black car in the left lane beside us, then I notice an over sized load truck in the left turning lane, trying to turn into the driveway behind us....I see him get close to the black car with his trailer.  But it pulled up and escaped harm. We however did not have that option as a car was right in front of us. I scream " OMG he’s gonna...........(bam, crash crunch) hit us." And he did, tore the bumper right off our brand new car. I called the police first thing, and they arrive only to hear that guy say we backed into him. I was so TICKED! Who backs up into trailers at a red light? So I have been dealing with that stress all these past 2 weeks, stress at work, so I quit my job, stress with the whole Michael thing. 

I saw a lawyer, and we talked about again, working out a joint custody thing with Michael’s lawyer, so Michael said he would talk to his lawyer and see what he thought about the situation, but every day I ask him if he has talked to him, he says not yet. I only have 20 days to respond from the day I picked it up, so if I haven’t heard anything by next week, I gotta pay $600. Oh and when we went to get the van, they called some 1800 number, and it wouldn’t take our check because we hadn’t had the account for at least 6 months, and of course there wasn’t enough money in there to just go get it so Blaine’s grandma had to wire us $710, and it cost her $45 to do that. 

And I don’t know if any of you knew this but Blaine decided to speed one day and got stopped by a state trooper, doing 74 in a 55, got 3 tickets, go Blaine! He has to go to court on that the 17th, one day before my birthday! Our air conditioner didn’t seem to be working right for 2 months, it was set on 73, and yet got up to 84 in here, Our electric bill has been $200 for 2 months, we did everything we could think of, so finally I called the company who built our house, and they being so polite, sent a guy out here, a nice guy. So nice he stole my brand new motorola pink L2 (a $250 phone) off my couch.......Of course no one believes me. My kids must have it they say. Yeah well I guess they ate it in the 15 minutes I was in the kitchen and it wasn’t in my sight. They never play with my phone, they get in big trouble and they know it! So being the "nice" thing to do the company offers me $100 toward a new phone to shut me up. I was tickedd until I found a whole bunch of hot pink razrs on ebay brand new unlocked, unopened for $98! I ordered it, but it hasn’t got here yet. With my luck it will be lost in the mail and I’ll never get it.

School pretty much sucks, if I got out just 15 minutes sooner, the kids wouldnt have to go to daycare, so I ask the teacher could she let me go those 15 minutes, and she gives me a long speech about me needing to be there for the whole class blah blah, she can’t allow that, blah blah, so I go call Blaine, take the girls to day care I say. What happens? She lets the class out 15 minutes early, but Blaine had already dropped them off. STUPID LADY!!!!

What’s worse? Today was my mom’s birthday. She would have been 44, and the 2 people I needed to talk to most,  weren’t there for me. Too busy with other things. I am not even going to pretend I am not hurt by their actions. I kinda understand they have so much going on too, but it only takes 2 minutes to say hey, I know today is your mom’s birthday, and tomorrow is 2 years since she passed, but I am thinking of you today. It does hurt. I have been bawling all day. Why God Why? Everything would just be so much easier to deal with if I just had my mom to lean on..........

Blaine and I got into a HUGE fight last night. He left for about 30 minutes and I called Jade for a bit, we both calmed down and worked it all out. He is going with me tomorrow to my mom’s grave and that makes me feel a lot better, I haven’t been since this time last year. Oh and we are going to get marriage counseling because we both love each other and we want to learn how to stop taking the stress out on each other and communicate better. If you guys know anyone around here you recommend, I’d love to hear about them.

Last but not least, CONGRATULATIONS to Amanda aka Cox n Balls who passed her bar examine. She is now officially a lawyer. I knew you had it in you !