Ticked Off

Why? Why is it always SOMETHING? Why can’t for once everything go the way you need it to? I am so angry, and stressed, and tired that I just can’t take it any more. Well like I said in my last blog, we had to spend all my student loan on bills. We were 370 bucks overdrawn in our account, and the last of the money we had was $400 and we were going to deposit it Friday.

 About 2:45 pm I found out that all Blaine’s W2’s were in and we could do our taxes. We usually do that rapid refund thing because we want our money now, and need it now. Last year we went to H&R Block and it cost us $500 to get it back in one day or less. We were like wow! But we needed it right then to pay the deposit for this apartment and all that stuff, so we did it. We decided this year we weren’t going to go there. So I told Blaine, if he would for sure get up early on Monday and go do the taxes in 1 day or less, then we could just wait to cover our over drafts and go ahead and go to his mom’s like we have been planning for months. He said yeah.

So we leave Friday at midnight because Blaine had to go to work, with 3 kids loaded up in their pj’s. Before we got out of Ft. Smith, Bryceton and Madison were fast asleep. Kadence? Ummm no...she screamed and cried the whole way down there. I tried to sleep against the window, and every time I dosed off, she went to screaming again. I was tired and uncomfortable, so I asked Blaine to get a motel room about 3:30 in the morning. Cost us $62 of our food and gas money and the beds were hard as a rock. Seriously the hardest bed I have ever slept on. The floor would have been more comfortable. And they were small. Try squeezing a fat guy, a fat, pregnant girl, and a wiggling baby in a small bed. Wasn’t happening. So Madison came to sleep with me and Poo Poo and Blaine slept with Bryceton. Or rather, we tried to sleep. Kadence still kept waking up every hour or so crying. She knew she wasn’t home and I knew we should have been! So at 9 am the kids are up all bright eyed and bushy tailed. All 3 of em! Ugh...so I woke Blaine up and went to the dollar store to get some shampoo and soap. We didn’t plan on staying anywhere besides his mom’s so I didn’t think we would need it. 

We Left at 10:35 am and stopped at Hardees for lunch. Where I found not only one,but TWO hairs in my burger. Gag...so we left. Oh, and I forgot to mention that at the hotel when I went to change Madison, all the pull ups I had packed for her were gone out of her bag. Blaine was like "I saw her carrying some out of our bedroom" So she took them all out before we had left. Luckily we had one in the car for emergencies, but as soon as we got to El Dorado at noon we had to go to Wal-mart to buy more. Which costs us more unexpected money. We finally got to his mom’s and then we opened Christmas presents. I got Bryceton a Lightening McQueen car that makes noises and sounds and stuff, Madison a bath time Cinderella doll with water color changing tablets, and Poo Poo a big Elmo that says "Elmo loves you, and hug me" and stuff and his eyes light up in the shape of hearts. We got his sister a HUGE makeup set with a purse, another make-up set with a pedicure set and a locker to store it all in, 5 lip gloss balls, a bath set with a hot pink shower radio, and a baby doll with a bag and bottle and stuff. We got his brother a basketball goal and ball for the tub, a bath set, a bath paint set, a green car with rims and it plays music and makes noise, and a big train caboose thing filled with legos. 

Now when I say "we" got it, I mean I did. Blaine doesn’t shop, lol.  Then we left there and went an hour to Louisiana to his grandmothers, where she had some good gifts waiting for them. The she left for work at 9:30 that night. We decided to stay the night there since she wouldn’t be home till morning. She got me and Blaine a lamp for our living room, me a maternity shirt, some make-up and some smell goods like lotion and spray. She got Blaine 2 awesome shirts, a big bath set that is coconut, (but she doesn’t know he HATES coconut, lol, so I'm gonna use it.) and something else I can’t remember....She got Madison a cabbage patch newborn, her first one ever! and a little prayer frog. Bryceton got a car that does tricks and flips and has rechargeable batteries and a sucker that had a toy attached that you try to get a basketball in the net. it got thrown out of the window on the way home because I was trying to sleep and he kept making noise with it after I told him to stop. I know I’m mean! And Poo Poo got a prayer bear, and a pig that has little blocks that you put into the right shapes. Cute! 


Kadence refused to go to bed, cried and cried the whole time. About 11:30 Blaine took her in the den and rocked her to sleep so I could sleep. They came to bed at 2 something and she finally fell asleep for good. The bed was small and we were uncomfortable. I woke up at 6:30 am and I tried to make Blaine get up so we could go but he wouldn’t budge. Then about 45 minutes later his grandma woke him up and he got up. We all got dressed and headed back to his mom’s. Sat there for a little bit and left about 12:30 to go home. I was so tired. Blaine was tired, we had spent a lot of our money on gas and high price snacks and drinks for the trip. I just wanted to get home. We had been planning on eating at Ruby Tuesday in Russellville on the way back because we had never ate there. I wanted to stop in Conway and change the girls diapers, and brush their hair and let me and Bryceton pee before we got there. I asked Blaine to go to wal mart and he’s like why?
I said because the men's bathroom usually has a changing thing too, and we can each change one, and be faster.
So we go to wal mart and he drives up ONE aisle and can’t find a parking spot so he gets all ticked off, starts to yell and cuss "I don't see why u had to come here, why not go to a gas station, whine whine whine"
So I was like, "fine go to a gas station you big baby"
So he goes, and we get there, and it has 2 very small stalls and a changing table right in the way, everyone and their mama, and daughters and granddaughters had to pee, it was small and crowded, and Kadence screamed the whole time I tried to change her. The hand dryer was RIGHT there beside me, and kept going off on my back while I tried to change her making me all hot and ticking me off more. Then, people just standing around in there watching me...
So when I got her done, I opened the door to give her to Blaine so I could change Madison and he’s not out there. I call and call for him, getting more ticked. And woman are asking if I'm "in line" When it’s obvious I am using the changing table. I go back in set Poo Poo down on floor to help Madison, and she screams and screams more because there are people scaring her, all crowded around her,staring at us. Then she lays on the floor, and looks under the stalls. I was just so angry and stressed that I started crying right there in the store.
All this could have been avoided if he had just went to wal mart....I just wanted to go home. Then we ate and spent all but 20 bucks we had. Stopped in Ozark for gas and spent that 20 bucks, took the kids to Michael’s to play with Meeka for a little bit and then came home. I took a hot bath and went to bed man. I was tired. Blaine stayed up till midnight then he went to bed. That’s early for him. I got up at 7:30 to go to school came home at 10, and he was in his boxers, the girls in their pj’s and still in bed, not fed or changed like I asked him to have done when I woke him up at 8:15 to be ready so we could go do our taxes. He’s all grouchy all day. Yelling and cussing and being a jerk. 

We go to do our taxes at this lady’s office that my dad used to work for. She says we can save over 300 bucks if we wait one day, and it could possibly be in that day but they can’t promise, but it would be the next day for sure. (Which would be today)So as much as I hate waiting, I said I would. She said call back at 3 and if it’s not there then it would be no later than 10 am today. I called the reality office and they said our floors weren’t schedule to go in until Friday, so I could go ahead and paint the bedrooms now before they do the floors. They painted them, but I only got to pick from off-white, tan, white, or tanner, lol. I don’t care about the rest of the house but I wanted the bedrooms unique. So I thought it would be awesome to do it before they did the floors so I didn't have to worry about making a mess. So I didn’t go to school today so we could go cash the check and get paint and stuff, and pay some bills and all that. We get up there and she said Lynda wasn’t in yet check back at 11. We went and looked around at some furniture places looking for a new bed to kill some time. Called at 11 and she said she hadn’t checked her email yet to see if the bank approved it and that it would be about 30 minutes.

Called back at noon, she was "busy"...Now I am just MAD. So I said let’s go up there, and you tell them, look we paid extra to get it back in one day and it’s been over 24 hours...etc. So he goes in, and comes out and says it is gonna be 2 weeks now, and for me to go in there and talk to her and see why. By this time I start to cry. Our gas tank is now on E from all the driving around we did to kill time. I’m hungry,Blaine’s hungry. the girls are hungry and I missed school for this crap. We had 1 dollar man! ONE! So I go in and she says the bank had sent her something saying we couldn’t be approved for the fast service. So she said she would call them and find out why. Well it is because this is the first year we claimed married. Last year we weren’t married yet when we did taxes, so whenever you have a status change for the first time, they have to verify stuff like if I have outstanding student loans or owe back child support or whatever. BUT we didn’t know this! Or we wouldn’t have went to his mom’s and spent all our money. So I didn’t know what we we’re gonna do.

She says it will be in next Thursday, but I have to get to school all this week and next. But thankfully Sheryl is going to let us borrow some. Man I don’t know what we would do without her. This just really sucks. Everything always happens like this. It’s just so....so....frustrating! I still think if we had went to H&R Block it wouldn’t have happened. That lady says no bank would do it, but I don’t believe her...We don’t plan on going back there next year. I hate life sometimes. :(