He hears us even when we don't speak

Isn't God amazing??? I don't even know how else to begin this post other than amazing things are happening for our family right now.

Yesterday I had made up my mind about something. I had been deeply hurt, like the "how can I ever move past this?" kind of hurt. I cried for 6 hours. I did not want to go to church all swollen eyed and red faced but I went.

Had I not, man, this blog would be totally different. I would be totally different. I posted on my facebook before church how I was hurt. I didn't say why, I won't. My couple of close friends they know. God knows. I said in my post how supposedly time heals all wounds. Then I leave facebook and go to church. Red swollen puffy eyes and all.

And the message is all about being HURT! I didn't even ask God but He knew what I needed to hear. I kept looking around waiting for hidden cameras to be revealed and someone saying "You've been punked" Like seriously I was like okay did this guy have my phone tapped???

Marcus (the Pastor) told us exactly how not to deal with hurt, and how to heal. He actually said Time doesn't heal wounds, God does!!! How right on is that?? It was so amazing I cannot get this feeling out of me. I took my hurt and I gave it to God. It's His. I am done hurting. I am done holding on to anger and resentment. I am done being bitter over everything. Yeah my life has been crap. Yeah I lost my mom and my son and my daughter lives 16 hours from me. But I am alive and I have a husband who loves me and our kids and is working hard to give us everything. I have a home and friends and I have my God!!!

My whole life changed because of one decision. One choice not to let satan hold me down and keep me locked up and hurting at home. I am just so happy today and I want to stay that way. My life is about to get a whole lot better. :) I am so excited!!

Anyway nothing else really went on this week so I will check back in later on :) I hope everyone has an awesome week and a wonderful Easter! It is a day to celebrate!!!