Being a mom means not being selfish

When you are a mom, you have nothing any more. Everything you do and have is theirs and in turn God's. For without Him you wouldn't have a thing nor a child to give it to. Being a mom is great but it's also the hardest thing any one can do.

You have to forget everything about yourself and focus on them. You will never pee alone again!!!

Sometimes being a mom means making harder decisions for your kids then what they will wear that day or what preschool to send them too.

I had to make a choice like that and it tears me apart. But this year Bryceton is not living with us. He wants to be with Michael. And while I am scared and worried and I miss him, I know he needs this. I prayed about it for so long. I fought God with my own selfish reasons. But in the end I gave in and did what I need to do. I can tell a HUGE difference in him already! He sounds happy, he is doing good on home work Michael has him doing. He is doing his chores and earning an allowance. He is excited to start 4th grade next week :)

Bryceton was struggling with a lot here and I think a new environment is just what he needs. I know I will be judged. People will gossip and whisper. Ohhh now she has TWO of her kids not living with her. Well I don't care. I had no choice about Madison I did my best. But I am doing this for Bryceton. Not me, not Michael, not anyone but him. His happiness and well being are my only concerns not what anyone has to say. I doubt many women could let their baby go so far away for a year even if it was the best thing you could do for them. He was being bullied here and talked into stealing. He was miserable missing his dad and sister. So I am doing what I feel in my heart is right even if I don't like it!

It's weird just having the girls here. It's always been Bryceton and I. From the start. It's also hard not having him here to help with his sisters or check the mail like he loved to do! But it's only a year and he will be back and hopefully be in a better place within himself.

In other news Kadence started Kindergarten today and Isabella pre-k!! For the first time EVER in my life allll the kids were out of the house today. I slept until 2 pm lol. It was great! Isabella cried at school after lunch missing us but she will get used to it :)

Olivia turned 3 last month and we had a birthday party at Creekmoore pool! It was a lot of fun and I appreciate everyone who came :)

Everything is good here. Stressed with school and bows and bills but it will all work out. Hopefully I will be working in the Spring and can get rid of all 3 of those stresses :)

Well I hope everyone had a good first day of school this week! Have a great night!