Awwwwww

Okay I deleted the last post just because I wouldn't want him to use it against me ever if he found it. And sometimes it is hard to know who to trust, but I didn't say anything in that blog that I wouldn't or haven't already said in court, because it is true.

I also don't want to have to make this private so others can read about it. You never know when someone reading your story could be a blessing to them. Maybe someone else misses their daughter too and needs a friend. Or just found out they are expecting their 5th child and stressed and my funny stories can lift them up. Or they see that through everything I have been through, and it's a lot more than most of you even know, that I still praise God and know He has a great plan for me.

So If I feel the need to rant maybe Ill make a private note on my fb lol.

Tonight my very first real friend came by with her husband. I have known her since 3rd grade and we had a lot of great times together back then. My moving around we lost touch a bit but always managed to find our way back :) She found me a few years ago on myspace and we have kept in touch since. She has really been here for me recently and words cannot say how I appreciate it. A few weeks ago I was having a bad night and she called to check on me when really she was at my door, with a coke icee (my fav!) in hand, coming to cheer me up.

She has never complained about doing anything for me, and she will do anything she can. She will watch the kids for us. She was going to take Blaine to the ER when he hurt his foot but he just decided to go ahead and go. She drives out here all the time to visit. She goes to the store with me so I dont have to handle the kids alone.

Anyway tonight her and her husband came down and brought all the kids a present, something that they had really wanted. I was so grateful, they have no idea. It was the sweetest thing. They have lots of family they have to buy for, and yet they still chose to get my kids something.

Blaine and I talked it over a few weeks ago when I was stressing about what would happen to the kids if we died. We decided that Tiffany and Travis would make the best adoptive parents we know. They don't have kids of their own. Personal issues, but would love some. Tiffany worked in day cares for years, baby sits all the time. Isabella has already taken to Travis. She cried the first time she met him and he had to go. She did not want him to go. Tonight she sat by him and played with him all night. They did a puzzle together and watched tv, she said he was her new daddy lol. Shhh I won't tell Blaine that part ;) Just kidding she loves Blaine too and said now she has 2 daddies! Tiffany said Aunt and uncle so hopefully that will stick.

But if anything did happen to us it would be a honor to me for the kids to call them mom and dad also. Because I know in my heart they would love them and care for them as if they were their own.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.
Proverbs 3:5-6