Home Sweet Home

Well I am back! (Cheer cheer). This has been the longest week of my life. Moving sucks. Seriously. Hopefully I never have to move again. Wouldn’t be so bad if it were just Blaine and I. But 3 kids that are spoiled rotten with toys and clothes. Wooooo. So we got the kids bathroom finished. Bright yellow with Rubber duckies. It’s really cute. We have decided to hold off on the painting of the kids room. I have paint, and wall paper, but it’s just gonna have to wait until not so much is going on. And I’m not so ..... pregnant.

 I have been so stressed that I had a little breakdown last week and quit school. The main reason was because the stupid blazer keeps over heating and I was too scared to drive it to school, but also gas cuz it’s now 20 minutes or so to school instead of 5, and just being so exhausted from kids, and unpacking, and cleaning dog poo and stuff. So I thought long and hard this weekend. I prayed and asked God what I needed to do with my life. He told me not to give up, and gave me hope for the future. So today I went back to school. So I guess you could say I had a mini vacation. Just 3 days, and it sure didn’t help my grades at all! But the important thing is I am not going to give up. I have to do what is best for my family and not what is easy for me. I chose to have 4 kids no one else, and no one else can be responsible for their future. Plus I think about my mom a lot. What she would want for me. I want so badly to make her proud. It would be so much easier if she were here, cheering me on. It’s nice to have someone say they are proud of you. I never hear that. Occasionally from my Ya-Ya, but no one else. Words have a lot of power people. So tell someone you are proud of them. You really don’t know the difference it can make in their life.

So with that, I want to say that I am proud of my kids. They are good kids, and smart kids and the deserve all the happiness in the world. I am proud of Blaine, who not only works his butt off every night till midnight, but has decided to help share the responsibility of picking up Bryceton and Madison from Michael’s at 6 am. He takes Mondays and Wednesdays, and I get Thursday and Fridays. They stay the night here Mondays so we can have Tuesday to sleep in. He’s a good man you know. I may whine and complain, but I wouldn’t trade him for the world. I am proud of the man he has become since I met him. 

I am proud of Sheryl. She has been through so much, and she has toughed it out. She has her own house, a new car, a full time job, and goes to school. I am so proud of her not giving up when things get tough. I wish I could have some of her strength. I am proud of the friend she has become. Much more in tune to my need of space and or just to let me cry to her about my problems. 

I am proud of Amanda. She will graduate from Law school in May. I don’t know how she does it. So smart! All that studying and school work and yet still has time to work TWO jobs and spend time with her family. I am proud of Erica and Alex. Alex has grown up since meeting her. Not that I knew him before, but through out their relationship, I have seen a change in him for the better. Erica is going to be a mommy, and a darn good one! I am proud of her sticking to that and her morals, and being a good friend. 

I am proud of my cousin Melanie for keeping her job, and going back to school. And getting rid of the losers in her life! I am proud of Lacey and Justin for working things out and being the family I know they can be. I’m proud of Jade for being such a good mommy. It’s really easy to give up on your kids, or let grandparents take over all the time. I know there are so many times I wished I could get away. But not only does she take pride in her mothering, she NEVER complains about it. Never. Most parents, myself included, gripe and moan about kids. Not Jade. She enjoys it all and it shows! 

Everyone who reads this, I am proud of you too! I am proud to know you, and to be your friend. Oh Christine, because you have 3 boys and a husband, and yet I see you in class everyday. (At least the days I’m there, lol). I wish I could be like you! I know from experience that it isn’t an easy thing to do, so you, I am sooooo proud of! And I am really glad I met you! It’s nice to have someone who understands what I am going through. I know you people hate my long blogs. But so what! What else are you going to do? Perhaps you should thank me for giving you something to do rather than complain.....lol.

Ok moving on. I made myself a promise that I WILL go to class everyday. No more slacking, no more bad luck. Well you can’t stop bad luck, but I am going to try my hardest. I am going to study every night for no less than 2 hours. No more laziness. Well not so much laziness. Can’t cure it overnight, lol. We got a lot unpacked. Let me rephrase.... "I" got a lot unpacked. Pretty much everything but Kadence’s care bears, because there is like 4 boxes full, and we haven’t got the nets up yet, and some junk in our room because, well I don’t know why. I guess because I am a pack rat and save EVERYTHING and just don’t feel like messing with it right now! 

Oh we fixed the dog poo problem for now. We got this thing for dogs that screws into the ground, and hooks to your dogs collar. We have to check on her a lot because she likes to tangle herself in the bushes. But I think we fixed that by moving her out and over some. She can reach the front porch and I put her blanket out there to sleep on. We would put her in back but there isn’t any sod and it’s all muddy and junk from the rain. So the front she stays. And if we have to leave somewhere, she will go into her cage in the garage for a bit. So we are all happy. She isn’t caged up, can run around the yard and poop and pee where she pleases. We don’t have to smell and/or clean up the poo or pee and don’t have to worry about her running off, or listen to her bark about being in the cage! So yay for us all! Now I can look for me a kitty. I really want a fluffy gray one with maybe some white on it’s paws or chest. I don’t want all black, I don’t want orange, and I don’t want Calico. Soooo anyone have any kitties? Gray/white or black and white? Or just white? Oh how I love kitties!

Oh guess what? Monday I think it was...Maybe Tuesday, I opened the front door to see if Michael was here yet, and coupons fell on the ground. For pullups. Hmmmm? Wonder who could have put those there? Who do you think! I know it was HER from next door. She is really not getting off to a good start with me. Seriously. How does she know if I even USE pull ups? Which I do sorta. Madison is potty trained pretty much now, but I make her wear one at night, and Michael buys them so I don’t care. But how would she know that? Spying? Plus I don’t want trash blowing around my yard or porch. UGH. Well I better get off here and do some homework. Seems like there was something else. OH who is coming to the parties/shower? I need to know at least ONE week before. Thanks! March 31st at 3 pm.